Gratitude Journal January

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What a month. It has been a bit of a rollercoaster month, at times feeling incredibly stressful or just like I am floundering, and at others full of uplifting moments and with lots of inspiration for new challenges I am pursuing.

I had some clear goals for my life going forwards, not just 2016 but forever. I was excited to get started on them but somehow the reality of getting back into the routine of life after the Christmas period meant that it went a bit haywire and I spent the first half of the month feeling distinctly lost.

I also finally finished my counselling process that lasted 4 and a half years. It was what I wanted and I no longer felt that I needed that support, however it was also a bittersweet moment of ending as I effectively lost a positive relationship from my life.

Adding into that mix was the organisation of an event with a group I am part of and working with other people being difficult to keep everyone happy. It led me to feeling more than a little down about the whole thing and wondering why I put myself in that position.

In the end we are all human, we are all capable of pulling ourselves down or indeed up. I gave myself some leeway, some grace to just keep going. I reminded myself that this time would pass, that its challenges would be overcome, or at least endured, and I would still be here.

And so as the time drifted to the end of the month, and there are some lovely positive things that have happened. I spent some great moments with my children; baking, gardening, experimenting, talking, and just watching them. My husband and I managed a date night.

I found that I was renewed in the purpose of achieving my goals but making sure that I was being realistic. I realised that I have written posts that I am really proud of and I’ve done some of that creative writing that I wanted to do (if not as much as I had hoped).

I remembered my reasons for being involved in the group, and I hope that the group find a balance that works soon. I found other sources of inspiration and support, as well as being able to offer it myself when I came across others in need.

I am grateful that these challenges pass, they are just moments.

I am grateful that I have found the strength in myself to carry me through.

I am grateful for realising all this and accepting it, not trying to fight too much and drowning myself in the process.

I am grateful for seeing the positives that are always there among the negatives.

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  1. Julie Jo Severson says:

    “I am grateful that I have found the strength in myself to carry me through.” That’s a profound and significant thing to find. Nice to be directed over here from WritingBubbles:)

    1. Yes, I haven’t always had that so I am very grateful for it. Nice to ‘meet’ you xx

  2. It really can be difficult to be grateful sometimes can’t it Alice? But writing the negatives down can really help to flip them over into positives. And the more you do, the easier it becomes. I find this with my daily gratitude journal 🙂 #ShareTheJoy

    1. I really love doing a gratitude journal, I generally use Instagram and brief journal entries day to day, which I find works for me. It’s quite empowering to be able to turn negatives into positives. Xx

      1. I’m finding it comes with lots practice 🙂

  3. It can be so difficult to see positives when we are being flooded with worries and negativity. I find it helps to take a step back and refocus, and as you have done, look for the positives, no matter how small they may seem #whatimwriting

    1. Taking a step back is very important, it can be hard to do that in the moment though. It’s what I needed and it has certainly helped me to see the positives. X

  4. Emily Organ says:

    Groups can be exhausting can’t they, and it’s tempting to think you’re better off doing things on your own after some experiences. But it’s important to stick with it and being able to reflect positively is a good achievement. I can imagine it feels odd managing without counselling now, I hope February goes well for you.

    1. So exhausting! Plus I am terrible at delegating. It seems to be working out better so far for February though. It is strange not to be going to counselling now but not unsettling or difficult, I feel I’m coping with that well. Thanks Emily go reading. X

  5. K.D Jennings says:

    I especially like the last sentence of your post.
    I always find that new energy in January invigorating, but you are right, with getting back into a routine after Christmas it is not always easy to tap into it. xx

    1. Thanks Katia, it’s good to just remind ourselves of that sometimes isn’t it. And also to have patience if that energy doesn’t translate into actions exactly as we hoped. Xx

  6. maddy@writingbubble says:

    I think January can be such a tough time of year and you’ve had a lot going on – endings and beginnings and lots of plans! Well done for turning things round. I’m glad the gratitude journal works for you, I think it’s such a good idea to focus on the positive. I was excited to read about your plans earlier today too! Fab! Thanks for linking to #WhatImWriting

  7. So good to take a moment to focus on the positives in the midst of a life that can sometimes feel overwhelming and full of challenges! I have to stop and breathe regularly to remind myself that, really, it is all good – even when (especially when) I feel like I’m drowning. Your instagram posts are often a reminder to me to do just that, so thank you 🙂 xx

    1. It’s the stopping and breathing that can be tricky – I know that when I really feel like I’m overwhelmed, I lose that perspective a bit, but I am better than I used to be at recognising it, I suppose this post is celebrating that. I’m glad you enjoy my IG, it is definitely something that keeps me positive 🙂 xx

  8. Rachael says:

    “I am grateful that these challenges pass, they are just moments”. So true. It can be hard to remember that when we’re in the middle of them though, can’t it? Congratulations on finishing your counselling process, although it must have been so hard to let that relationship go… January is never an easy month, far too much expectation I find but lovely to b able to note all the little pieces of joy you have managed to find. x

    1. Thank you Rachael. Finishing counselling has certainly been a milestone. I do see it as positive, but it also is a loss as you say. I tried not to build my expectations too high, and recognise that the month simply continued on into February etc ad infinitum…life is a journey not a destination, and that really helped. Xx

  9. January can be a tough month can’t it! So many goals and plans and then so often life gets in the way and we feel despondent. But you’ve got some great tools in your toolbox to chip away at the negatives and find the nuggets of gold in your everyday Alice. Love your gratitude journal images and these updates. Thanks for sharing this at #sharethejoy x

    1. Yes, we have to just have enough perspective to dig into that toolbox and we are ok. I’m glad I have that now. Onwards and upwards into February and beyond! Xx

  10. This was a lovely read Alice and I am so pleased to hear that, like the end of January, you are coming out the other side relatively unscathed and making positive changes. All the best to you lovely x #WhatIAmWriting

    1. Thank you Victoria, glad you enjoyed it. We all need a bit of perspective at times don’t we?! Xx

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