This week has been a bit hectic to say the least, with lots going on. I have found it harder to stop and be grateful for moments as they appear, and particularly take the photos. However the week hasn’t felt completely awful, which previously it might have done, which has to be a benefit of the gratitude journalling.
This week in particular I found the writing process for my weekly post tricky and that felt incredibly frustrating. I actually started the post before last weekend and got up early 3 or 4 mornings trying to mould my words and make the point of the post become clearer. And then my ‘blogging morning’ was still filled with fiddling, restructuring and rewriting.
For the first time since I started posting regularly, I felt like not publishing, because I wasn’t sure about what I was saying or the writing. When I write, I have an emotional cue which gives me a sense of what I want to write about and then I get my thoughts down and I look at finding the point that I actually want to make.
And normally it all becomes clear, but this week it seemed to remain maddeningly nebulous. But I published anyway and I have moved on. Sometimes I guess its just not going to work and at least one of the benefits of a publishing schedule is that it stops me getting caught up too much in something at times like this.
But I am grateful for the company of one of the cats while I was trying to get it right.